Saturday, March 31, 2007

Brain transpant

Ok I 27 years old and I think I want a fucking brain transplant. I know your thinking that I must want a new brain but actually I think I'm relatively smart and would like to keep my current brain what I want is a new body. Its not that I dislike the way I look because that is really not the case. I more often than not dislike the way I feel. I seriously don't think there is a part of my body that doesn't really have something wrong with it. Currently my new pain is in my feet more specifically my heel. Now here's the thing. I don't normally complain about things that don't hurt that much, or don't hurt all the time. But my feet hurt all the damn time, which might not be such a problem if I didn't spend 8+ a day on my feet. Actually at work on Friday my feet hurt sooo bad that every time I stepped on my heel it sent shooting pains up my leg.
I was kinda hoping at the beginning of last week when they started to get really bad that all I would have to do was get a pedicure (which I still plan on doing mind you, who want to come with me), but I think that we're past the pedicure really curing my foot pain. Though I'm still hopeful. I did look up heel pain online and it turns out to be a kind of big deal. Something to do with over stretching the ligaments in my feet blah blah. All I really think if fuck My fucking ligaments causing me fucking pain again. Stupid ligaments I don't know why they just can't work like everyone Else's. Stupid feet suck cause you know if that is the problem their is no "cure" per say. I have to buy good supportive shoes (i.e. ugly shoes) which will look crazy with all my cute clothes. Which I know is terrible but its not even the worst part. The worst part is that it looks like, if that's my problem, that i not only have to wear ugly shoes, but I have to do exercises. Please lord no more exercises. Because telling me that I HAVE TO do it really makes me not want to do it. I have though been wearing better shoes. I seriously think it has something to do with this city since it seems I've had even more weird issues that normal since I moved back here. I would like to blame it on walking to the train etc. but I'll be real I only walk like half a block to the bus then take that to the train, then walk a half a block to my store. I am though on my feet for almost all 8 hours that I'm working. Which leads me to the question of what the hell I'm going to do if there really is something wrong with my feet. As most of my past doctors tend to frown upon my choice of careers I can't really imagine them being more excited now.
Oh well I know we all have our problems, but I be real all I really care about currently is mine because my fucking feet always hurt. On the plus side I did try to make an appointment I found another place where I can make an appointment online. We all know how much I like that. Now I'm just waiting for them to call me back. I'm sure you are all just dying to know whats wrong so I'll try to keep you posted.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Fan-fucking-tastic

I know what your all thinking. Oh damn she about to rant on and on about something now. Well your wrong. I'm having a wonderful day. Mostly this is due to the fact that my back doesn't hurt at all. Honestly I can't remember the last time my back didn't hurt. Its been hurting a lot since my most recent accident in Jan. I was almost thinking about going to the doctor about it. Even had a super crabby week last week cause it hurt so damn bad. I would go to sleep and wake up and it actually hurt more than when I went to bed. Don't really know how that works. But last night I had a horrible headache (which unfortunitly is still not gone but one problem at a time right), so I found in my pocket a little magic orange pill. I found it when I switched coats because its been so nice outside this week. Anyways the magic orange pill was a muscle relaxer that I got from M after my car accident, and of course after I ran out of all my stored up good drugs.
Anyways I slept wonderfully almost didn't get up for work, but thats mostly becasue I forgot to set my alarm after I moved my clock forward an hour. And when I got up my back didn't hurt. Which kind of makes me wonder what the hell I do in my sleep normally cause I wake up feeling worse all the time. Anyways I feel so I got that I think I might start working out again.. We will see though about that since its like 10pm and I'm certainly not going to do it now. Mostly I've been thinking about it a lot lately only problem is ussually when my back starts hurting enough for me to think I should be working out again its hurts to much to do anything. I guess if M finds all of her little orange pills gone she will know where they went.

Thursday, March 08, 2007

itunes blows a big fat one

Ok so I recently spend about five hours naming all the songs I transfered from cd to my computer on itunes. By recently I mean I just fucking finished like an hour ago. Seriously it was super annoying mostly because some of the Cd's were really really old. Now I will contextualize a bit and share that since all my Cd's were stole along with my deck from my car about five years ago I really didn't replace the Cd's buy actually buying new ones. Most of the music I had was on mixed Cd's my ex-boyfriend made for me, or on randomly made Cd's I made about a year or more ago from music I downloaded on my other computer. Now don't start with me on this whole why didn't you just network the two computers cause clearly I already made a half ass effort to do so 9 months ago before I decided it was best to just leave the old computer in the hands of my loving MN family the Ricther's. They like my parents got stuck with a huge chunk of my crap when I left for which I do kinda of feel bad. Clearly I'm not smart enough to try this networking thing and the computer I hate was really one its last leg anyways. In fact I think it maybe had a toe left as it was a gateway so i'm not even really sure we started out with a whole leg in the first place.
Now the point of my story is that it took fucking forever to figure out what all that crap was. I don't mean just forever. I mean like the sandlot FOOOREEVVEER kind of forever. I'm sure like one person will get that. Anyways this is why itunes blowes a big fat one. Now because I thought it would be a good idea to be these songs on my stupid ass phone even though it only holds a hundred songs, I uploaded it with itunes. I did have a Cd player in my car back in the good old days when I used to drive and before my brother had it and let someone steal the fucker for the second time. Point being I had a text reader on my Cd player so when I burned the Cd's I burned them with text so I would always know what I was listening too. I try to do things the easy way every now and then. Anyways Itunes can read the text off the Cd. Hence the five hours spent figuring out what the hell I had in my itunes library.
So after I'm done with this I figure maybe I will add some more Cd's sense I have a bunch more I just ran out of time last time. But I think to myself that i've done this before in Real on my old computer and it read the Cd text, so maybe I'll try that so I don't have this problem again. Oh and guess what it works. Fucking hell If real can do why not itunes isn't itunes suppose to be more advanced. Stupid crap. I know what your thinking now. Why didn't I just put the Cd's one by one and just copy the text by hand in theory easier right. Well does theory ever fucking work. No it does not. Because itunes doens't keep the fucking Cd's together in the library so I have like a group of 12 track 01, 12 track 02, 12 track 03 etc etc etc you get the point right.. up to like 24 because when you burn your own Cd's you can add more. I fucking hate itunes. I'm bitter and my back hurts. Goodbye

Saturday, March 03, 2007

My new fun

Ok well I decided that I wasn't going to spend anymore money on my credit cards a few months ago. I have been doing a mostly good job with it. I've had a few slips mind you who doesn't but all in all I have been living on the money that I make. That being said I decided to buy some stuff using the point that I have earned on my credit cards. Now I know I could have "save up" the points but I really really don't want to spend that much money on my credit card just to "save up" some points. Because lets face it you need a whole lot of points to get something really nice, in which case you might as well have just bought the thing yourself because it would have been way cheaper. The point being one of the things I got was and espresso machine.

Now the reason for this Espresso machine is that I'm trying to cure my addiction to Starbucks. Which is really pretty bad. Because really who can afford to spend five dollars a day or more on coffee. Well I can but then there are bills that aren't getting paid etc. So this morning I decided to make my very first cup of whatever the hell I'm drinking. See Jon made some for me yesterday which was good but I really had nothing to do with the making of this said coffee. He did use unsweetened coco for it which I decided I really didn't like. SO this morning I thought well it look easy enough yesterday I can do this. Yeah things are never really that easy are they.

First problem is I wasn't not paying attention to what he was doing and really I have no idea how the stupid machine works. Second problem is that I have no milk. I do however have half and half which J did say does not froth well. So I just added water like he did yesterday. Now I start making the coffee part of the drink right, but then I'm reading the direction and it says not to turn the machine off until its done, but I think that I put too much water in, and I still have to froth the milk right. So I try frothing the milk which for some reason that I don't understand is spitting all over the place at me. Then I'm reminded of J story of people exploding the milk at the coffee place he worked at. Great I think I'm going to make a huge mess in the kitchen that he just cleaned for me because I'm a lazy ass.
So I'm trying to clean up the milk that may or may not be frothing. The glass starts to get really hot so decided froth or not its definitely hot enough, so I switch it back to the coffee part. It does turn out that there is way to much water because the cup get really close to over flowing. So I do what it says not to do and I turn the machine off. I figure what the hell could go wrong, and for a change nothing really does so I'm kind of excited. Now I really don't like the whole latte thing so I have to find something else to put in the coffee so it doesn't taste bad, so I decided to go with the package hot chocolate since its much the same as coco and its sweetened. Add a little more sugar and I'm good to go right. Well mostly. Its seems that the drinks is a little uncoffee like. Mostly taste like milk. Fuck it I think I can just drink a bit and try again since I never finish anything before it gets cold anyways, and won't drink cold coffee no big deal right?
So I try again. But I should start out by saying after I finished my first cuppa something I turn the machine back on so that the water would all come out and the next time I could just start from scratch which what one would assume the right amount of water. SO I go to start my second cup right. Now I turn off the machine and open it up. And pour the right amount of water in, which proceeds to spit all over the place because apparently it was still hot or something. I do have to say that the second cup taste decidedly more like coffee, and I actually managed to froth a decent amount of my half, half and half, half water. Its still not what I would call Starbucks quality. But its not the worst cuppa something that I've ever had which is a plus.
Alright well I'll try to update a little more on my own as well as the stupidity of others. Sorry I haven't been very crabby lately I try harder this month.